Never been more tired

I've never been more tired in my life. I feel tired to the core somehow. Like I've run a marathon, twice. At the end of the day I feel like I've been hit by a bus. My entire body hurts. I'm cold and sore.

My dad is doing better. He's on a high dose of cortisone to lift the swelling around the tumor. He's back home waiting for his appointment to the neurological clinic. He will have to undergo brain surgery, and it scares me to death.

What if something happens during surgery? What if the tumor ends up being malignant. I think the waiting part is the worst. You're mind is left with way to much time on it's hand. Imagining the worst.

I had an ok weekend after all. My dad banned me to hang out with him all weekend, so I went to my best friends house to hang out. I turned out to be an awesome night and I had a blast. She's such a great friend. She always puts me in a better mood.